Northern Drawl

Category: Ruminations

2014

I like making resolutions. I tend to write down goals, or pick things to work on, on a continual basis. Sometimes I feel a little overwhelmed by all the things I want to improve on or experience, which may or may not be a good thing. I think it’s good practice to do this throughout the year – not just at New Years…BUT, it does always feel a little extra special on January 1st.

Last year I had a whole page filled with ideas about how great I was going to be in 2013. I had big plans. Like becoming perfectly patient and kind. Heh. This year, I’m just going to focus on one thing: giving. I have so much, and am so blessed, and yet I find myself wishing for more too often. It’s pretty sad. I have a warm place to call home, a loving husband, a sweet little family, a good job, a working car, good friends, and so much more. And yet, I spend time a lot of time thinking about things I want but don’t have…and I take everything for granted.

I think there are a few remedies for this problem, but the most productive and helpful solution seems to be giving. Focusing on others. I want to stop worrying about the small things and help someone who doesn’t even have a place to live..or food to eat. It seems a little ironic that the way to stop wanting more is to give more. But I have no doubt that it will work – it has in the past.

I’m not going to put any limits on it, or specifications. And I absolutely do not want it to be “I’ll just give X amount of money each month and then I’ll feel really good about myself.” Money is helpful, and it’s good to give if you’re able (and it is in my plan) – but honestly, my time and attention is a lot more valuable to me…so if I’m going to really try to stretch then I have to give some of that away, too.

I don’t plan on blogging about this venture at all this year. I’m not doing it to get attention or a pat on the back, so writing about specific things I do for other people would feel pretty cheap. But I did want to get the main idea down, so that I can hold myself accountable. It’s hard to make changes but I’m really looking forward to 2014. Happy New Year!

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Spring Has Sprung (And so have my allergies)

Hello, little corner of the world. It has been awhile since I last wrote; some of this is due to pure laziness (which I am guilty of on a regular basis) and a lot of it is due to not feeling well these last few weeks. Really, I’ve been sick for over 2 weeks. I’m finally feeling better. I’m able to sleep through the night without coughing up a lung (which I’m sure my husband appreciates too). How humbling to be such a disgusting, snotty, coughing mess in front of someone who is supposed to be attracted to you. I’m glad he loves me enough to put up with me. Although, the face he’s making below is probably the same face he’s been making at me at 2 in the morning. He’s still so handsome though, eh?

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So, I’ve been pretty frustrated and down about my lack of energy and the constant need to have a box of tissue with me. BUT it did make me really thankful for my overall well-being. Usually, I feel pretty good…and a two/three week long stint of allergy symptoms is nothing compared to what some people put up with on a daily basis. I’m very very thankful that I’ve been blessed with good health. And so has my family.

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Speaking of family, ours is growing. No, not a baby. a DOG! Brent and Ashen went to the dog shelter (Austin Pets Alive!) a couple of weeks ago and Brent fell in love with a little chihuahua mix, which is basically the last thing we thought we would get. She’s a sweetheart, we named her Elsi, and she’s starting to learn the rules around here…key word: starting. Really though, I’m so happy we got her. It’s helped me to get up earlier in the morning, and get outside after work for some sunshine and exercise…which has been much needed.

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Overall, things have been going well. I’ve had a lot on my mind (and heart) the last few weeks. Thinking a lot about my relationship with God, and how little I put into that…and how the consequences of that decision are felt on a daily basis. I’ll try to write more about that soon, but I’d like to gather my thoughts a bit more before I share them with the world.

Yours,

M.

ImageP.S. We got a fish too…he gets a little neglected now that the dog is around. But he sure is pretty.

The Beginning

Having a blog is something I daydream about. I imagine writing beautifully crafted posts that bring people to tears; either because they are just so charming and heartwarming, or so witty and hilarious. I imagine a blog full of gorgeous photography, or pages and pages of complicated DIY projects, or award-winning prose and poetry that will one day get published in The New Yorker. Needless to say, I’ve started about 100 blogs and immediately felt disappointed in myself and/or it’s content. I usually end up deleting all my posts out of embarrassment, I’ve even been known to feel mortified about a grammatical error I didn’t catch right away.

Who can live like that?

I mean really. Yikes. Talk about unrealistic expectations. I would never hold anyone else to that kind of standard, it’s un-human, so why am I holding myself to it? I don’t really know why. Maybe you can enlighten me about some deep psychological issue that I probably have (I’m not sure who “you” is supposed to be, but I’m going to pretend I have some followers).

Anyway, the point is…this one is going to be for real. No more deleting posts because I feel slightly embarrassed. No more cringing each time I notice a grammatical mistake after I’ve hit the “publish” button. No more. I’m just going to go for it, and we’ll see what happens.

Mostly, I want this blog to be a space where I can express gratitude for my immediate surroundings (God, family, friends, nature, things, etc). I want a space to document and appreciate my thoughts, adventures, ramblings, loved ones, etc. So I’m not going to worry so much about who might be reading, or if it’s interesting. I’m going to focus on it being a blog full of gratitude, memories, moments, and things.

But…I think I might just start with some pictures. I’m the kind of person who dips her toe in first, I don’t usually dive right into the deep end.

Yours,

M.